I began this project with optimism and hope. I managed to get a promotion at work, I began this blog and my personal relationships had never been stronger.

However with the following promotion came a whole host of new problems. The management team decided that it would be best for me to learn my new role, one that is heavily dependent on knowing where I work, at a completely different site. A lot of the learning that I needed to know was part of a training that I had technically finished, I just needed management to sign it off and finish my competency, however the paperwork was sat on the managers desk and due to it not being signed off I could not learn my new role in earnest. Due to staffing issues I could not shadow any one else doing the same role as I due to having to support.

Yet Management believed that I am ready and fully understand my role despite my constant badgering to receive more shadow shifts or to have the training marked off so I could learn that side of my job more effectively.

I felt defeated, deflated, as if I was being set up to fail. I brought these concerns to a the deputy manager and they agreed that due to circumstances that were beyond any of our control that more shadow shifts were needed. However they could only accommodate this if I was to come in on my days off. The next month or so most if not all of my days off are filled to the brim with doctors appointments for both me and my partner ergo the answer was that I could not do this.

To put the cherry on top of the cake the only other person on my current team in the same role is leaving, this would mean that I would be alone with lacklustre training, still fresh to the role and terrified that any number of things could go from bad to worse under my watch.

I am sorry that most of this post was about my issues with work but I needed to get it off my chest and writing about it has really helped. There is still hope with the following months as the doctors appointments I had mentioned for myself are for my gender affirming care and I am excited to begin this journey as soon as I can. As for other news I can offer I have multiple posts in the works, one following my completion of Metaphor Refantazio, another talking about the challenge runs that the Pokemon community have created for the series and my experiences with said runs, and finally a post that I have been working on for a long time now on the average experience and gameplay of MMO’s, survival crafting games and most “live service” model games and how they effectively bore their players.

I will try my best to update here more often as opposed to silence for an entire month however we will all have to see what the future brings with it. Again I am sorry for the long winded work rant and I hope that some of my projects interest some of you to come and read them when they are finished.